I used to think that I was special, like a rose in a bouquet 

Now I'm learning that my prickly thorns might ruin everything 

I thought I was complacent, thought I knew just who I am 

Now I'm deviating, turns and twisting, awol from my plan 

I should've known 

We're characters all reaping what we sew 

What if I'm not enough? 

What if I'm just a bluff? 

What if I'm not anything for anyone besides when things are tough? 

What if I'm just a trick? 

What if I'm just for kicks? 

I can't say I'm not proud of who I am, just contemplating where I stand 

Every morning brings a mourning, from the things that still decay 

But foundation is a castle built on sand that starts to shake 

I wanted to be Winter, but the Sunrise fits my name 

I wanted to be everything I tried to shun away 

I should've known 

As far as seasons go, I'm waiting out the snow 

What if I'm not enough? 

What if I'm just a bluff? 

What if I'm not anything for anyone besides when things are tough? 

What if I'm just a trick? 

What if I'm just for kicks? 

I can't say I'm not proud of who I am, just contemplating where I stand 

New horizons, new beginnings 

I won't be my own eclipse 

I can ride the solar flares 

Become my own Mistress 

And as long as we're still playing 

Pay attention, listen close 

I'm still terrified of being 

All the things I hate the most 

What if I'm not enough? 

What if I'm just a bluff? 

What if I'm not anything for anyone besides when things are tough? 

What if I'm just a trick? 

What if I'm just for kicks? 

I can't say I'm not proud of who I am, just contemplating where I stand 

Take me back to where we started 

I can't retrace the footsteps buried in the sand 

Guess I know I've just departed 

Made my leap, and now I'm seeing how it goes