# Where I Stand

I used to think that I was special, like a rose in a bouquet \
Now I'm learning that my prickly thorns might ruin everything \
I thought I was complacent, thought I knew just who I am \
Now I'm deviating, turns and twisting, awol from my plan \
I should've known \
We're characters all reaping what we sew

What if I'm not enough? \
What if I'm just a bluff? \
What if I'm not anything for anyone besides when things are tough? \
What if I'm just a trick? \
What if I'm just for kicks? \
I can't say I'm not proud of who I am, just contemplating where I stand

Every morning brings a mourning, from the things that still decay \
But foundation is a castle built on sand that starts to shake \
I wanted to be Winter, but the Sunrise fits my name \
I wanted to be everything I tried to shun away \
I should've known \
As far as seasons go, I'm waiting out the snow 

What if I'm not enough? \
What if I'm just a bluff? \
What if I'm not anything for anyone besides when things are tough? \
What if I'm just a trick? \
What if I'm just for kicks? \
I can't say I'm not proud of who I am, just contemplating where I stand 

New horizons, new beginnings \
I won't be my own eclipse \
I can ride the solar flares \
Become my own Mistress \
And as long as we're still playing \
Pay attention, listen close \
I'm still terrified of being \
All the things I hate the most

What if I'm not enough? \
What if I'm just a bluff? \
What if I'm not anything for anyone besides when things are tough? \
What if I'm just a trick? \
What if I'm just for kicks? \
I can't say I'm not proud of who I am, just contemplating where I stand 

Take me back to where we started \
I can't retrace the footsteps buried in the sand \
Guess I know I've just departed \
Made my leap, and now I'm seeing how it goes