# Iced Coffee - Part 2
*(Author's note: The first part of this is exactly the same as my original poem, "Iced Coffee". I included it both as a way to directly show my own growth in the poem and for convenience.)*

*Iced coffee, on a cold Winter's day* \
*Iced coffee, bittersweet at the taste* \
*Do you see me? I probably fade* \
*Fade into darkness, and I'll go away*

Hmm....

*Why can't you see me? This mirror is broken* \
*Why can't you see me? I can't be this broken* \
*Every line keeping me from satisfaction* \
*I'm wondering why you can keep me in traction* \
*I'm falling, I'm sinking, this love is a sinkhole* \
*I don't understand why you keep me, this freakshow* \
*I see you and there's so much better contestants* \
*Competing and winning and gaining attention* \
*And I'm consolation, the prize for obsession* \
*Don't know why you'd even give me just a second*

*Iced coffee, on a cold Winter's day* \
*Iced coffee, bittersweet at the taste* \
*Do you see me? I probably fade* \
*Fade into darkness and I'll go away*

*Hmmmm....* \
*Hmmmm....* \
*Hmmmm....* **(it's like... I don't really even know why I bother)** \
*Hmmmm....* **(am I even worth paying attention to in the first place?)** \
*Hmmmm....* \
*Hmmmm....*

*Iced coffee, on a cold Winter's day* \
*Iced coffee, bittersweet at the taste* \
*Now you see me, and I'll be okay* \
*I have my darkness so far tucked away*

(chuckle)

*I never thought I would tell you I've accepted* \
*That I've resolved all of my feelings of shame* \
*I've moved on and found others who keep me present* \
*Remind me that being alone is okay* \
*I look back and think about that pain you caused me* \
*And realize I should have voiced my refrain* \
*You never owed me all your time and attention* \
*You never owed me anything, just the same*

*We both agree there are much bigger aggressions* \
*Than anger from feeling abandoned or strayed* \
*I'm happy to find some common resolution* \
*I'm happy we don't talk and I'm not afraid* \
*I feel so much better about my own presence* \
*I feel so much better and now I can say* \
*That drinking iced coffee no longer reminds me* \
*Of feeling isolated from your embrace* \
*So I wrote more verses to speak of acceptance* \
*I'm closing the book on that unhappy moment*

*Iced coffee, on a cold Winter's day* \
*Iced coffee, bittersweet at the taste* \
*Now you see me, and I'll be okay* \
*I have my darkness so far tucked away*

*Hmmmm....* \
*Hmmmm....* \
*Hmmmm....* **(I wrote "Iced Coffee" to express some feelings I had at the time)**\
*Hmmmm....* **(and while those feelings were valid. I realize now)**\
*Hmmmm....* **(that the insecurity I felt had more to do with my self-worth)**\
*Hmmmm....* **(and my reliance on needing someone to hold onto)**\
*Hmmmm....* **(in order to keep myself feeling happy and safe)**\
*Hmmmm....* **(I just wanted to express that I've grown since then)**\
*Hmmmm....* \
*Hmmmm....*