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# Stillwater Pond
_She said "sweetie, whatcha thinkin'?"_ \
_I stared down at the ground_ \
_I don't think life is easy, and it's hitting me right now_ \
_We walked right down the sidewalk and I opened up my mouth_ \
_"My life is in a strange place,_ \
_Like sitting at a pond,_ \
_And noticing the stillness, and taking in the calm"_
(Mmmhmm) _I don't know what I'm doing, can't you tell?_ \
(Mmmhmm) _Not used to all the silence in my head_ \
(Mmmhmm) _And I'll be honest, I make my life hell_ \
(Mmmhmm) _So how am I supposed to do the rest?_
_Don't keep making your storms, girl, it's all you can do, to keep pushing through_ \
_Appreciate all the quiet, 'cus now your life is just up to you_ \
_You had it all along_ \
_Never had to write this song_ \
_So as long as we're sitting, here's the truth_ \
_You don't need to know what to do_
_I used to resort to drinking_ \
_It could numb the pain I felt_ \
_Every weekend I'd repeat it, and the weekdays just as well_ \
_I chose to just deny it, grin and bare, I'd tell myself_ \
_Now I'm not still in college_ \
_Or in a shitty job_ \
_So I told myself at my age I should practice self love_
(Mmmhmm) _Maybe I'm in more control than I let on_ \
(Mmmhmm) _When I stop the issues new ones just appear_ \
(Mmmhmm) _Wait, I'm starting to think they're already gone_ \
(Mmmhmm) _I should take my own advice, get out of here_
_Don't keep making your storms, girl, it's all you can do, to keep pushing through_ \
_Appreciate all the quiet, 'cus now your life is just up to you_ \
_You had it all along_ \
_Never had to write this song_ \
_So as long as we're sitting, here's the truth_ \
_You don't need to know what to do_
_I'm sitting at the airport_ \
_I'm on standby for the flight_ \
_I don't feel so agitated_ \
_About figuring out life_ \
_There's no way to have answers_ \
_And I don't need to plan_ \
_I'll just fucking make it_ \
_Just a step at a time_ \
_Take a breath, it'll be fine_ \
_You don't need to be right_ \
_Just keep doing what you can_