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Writing Myself Into My Own Grave (“Ill never be happy”)

You should keep your distance
You should never stay
You should learn your lesson
Im never okay
Ill always be wanting
More than I can say
Use your fucking head now
And please stay away
“Ill never be happy”
Thats the simple phrase
Always pushing boundaries
Always such a pain
Writing lines is hopeless
Just pills to help delay
You should learn your lesson
Im never okay

Mhm mhm.
(Its time for a break)

Im never satisfied, dont you think that youd agree?
Just a sad, pathetic, hopeless mess with endless strife and grief
You can say that Im perfection, you can tell me that you care
You can say I deserve better, now just let me go from there
Im nobodys posession, no ones aiming for my pride
And deserving better never helped me, I think thats a lie
Now its not about attention, and its not about my worth
Its not about a partnership Ill never find on Earth
Its the simple fact Im broken and Im tearing at the seams
Try to keep myself together helping other people, see?

I worry about people
I worry how Im seen
I worry what they think of me when Im not on their screen
I worry if they think of me at all, just the same
I wonder if they worry bout me too, when theyre in-game
I always seem to focus on if everyones alright
I always seem to go to bed and wonder through the night

“Are they okay?”
“Did they see me?”
“Am I helping?”
Im repeating

I go to bed
I close my eyes
Another day
Another night